As someone raised in the church and saved at age 11 I have done a lot of church. Listened to all types of music and sermons I have long forgotten.
And I dwelled…
Mostly in complacency. Mostly in that happy place. You know that place where you think you are being a good Christian just by showing up on Sundays. Then living Christlike enough the rest of the week.
But that seemed like only half the picture.
With where I am now I am constantly afraid I am not doing enough. That I am not showing up enough. That I haven’t talked enough.
Lead enough people to Christ.
What is it about pursuing GOD that can seem so thrilling yet leave you questioning at the same time?
The title of this blog comes from a book I read recently. One of six in the past two weeks. A pastor of over 20 years just ups and walks away.
Not from GOD. But from the way he and the people around him were “doing” church.
Is it enough to just show up on Sundays for an hour or so and consider your walk done for the week?
I know I did. For far to long.
Then I took action. Found a groove. Got some mojo going. Started investing more in the church I was attending. Now to be moved again. To things beyond my comfort zone. To the larger world.
Beyond the confines of four walls.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I love attending my church. There are some truly amazing people there. But there is something inside me still restless. Stirring. Waiting to be disturbed.
Lord, continue to move me to action. Beyond the confines of four walls. Make me useful. Change live for the better.